thoughts work...

in my mind ...

1. only today i found out that I am
a. not at all easy going
b. highly sensitive
c. very lazy
d. irresponsible
but i feel happy for the reason that till date i thought i was easy going , not sensitive and very responsible. So i gotta lotta work to correct my self from now on ....

2. College ends right in here .I Missed so much time without talking to some of those in my class with whom i think i would have made a very good friendship :(

3. I tell to a lotta people "be your self and don't even care what others think of you"... but i get a hard feeling that am not sticking to those braces now a days... :(

4. Sister is getting married on Nov 2. Very happy about that. But am going to miss her so much in some way. The fact that my mama is one gem of a guy makes me forget all those 'miss her' feelings :)

5. When am supposed to write what ever i feel like writing in my blog, i abstain from it for some reason or the other ....

6. no more parotaas ( instead dosas)
no more coffee ( instead some juice)
no more puff ( instead masala buns)
from last Monday... all for my healthy being :)

safely out of my mind :)

College

I used to write letters to my mom when I was in hostel in my school days. Very often. Cos i missed her so much. At those times when nobody is in room, I ll sit by the window... looking at the farthest tree i cud see and the mighty mountains behind those trees with an inland letter in my hand but with no words to write, for hours. Because i doubted whether the words I write would actually tell my mommy "how I felt for her and how i missed her". The truth was none of those words ,actually told my mom what i felt. but i continue to sit in my room staring at those trees ....

This time its college which am going to miss.And I already started staring at the keyboard....

Sorry mate , am going to miss you so much. But please tell me ,how do I handle your absence before you go outta site from my tear laden eyes :(

hours to cry before we sleep..

------better not to read this :-)-----too philosophical------------

When we are up to something we leave behind some other things which seems unimportant to us at that time. And when we are denied the thing which we are up to ,we obviously trail back some steps and take the other 'road not taken'. At times, the backward trail is so easy and simple. But in these easy cases, we would have contemplated the consequences and forthcomings well in advance. This is what we mean to be cautious or 'be prepared for everything' attitude.

But what do we do when we fail miserably? In a way upon which we haven't thought about an alternative .What runs in our mind when our desire lead us somewhere near a dead end, from where there is no coming back, because we were too weak to imagine the things to be ready with, in case of failures. Or May be we didn't want that thing to fail us so badly, because life seems so so meaningless, if that is not going to happen. When life goes meaningless and when we aren't prepared for such a vacuum so big as this, its better to sit alone, all alone and cry until we cry better .... :-(

My interview experience

DATE: 11th August 2009
COMPANY: HP
COLLEGE: PSG TECH, Coimbatore.

4:00pm
TECHNICAL ROUND:
Highly tensed.I asked myself, "What do u think u can do to impress them?".And only at that time I realized the need for a super human power is so inevitable. The gentleman who conducted the interview was excellent :)

He started the interview from the next second.
1.He gave a program and asked what is scope and life of a variable. How does static work? I answered this question terribly wrong. But then i said, am not sure about the answer.
2.Where are the global, local variables stored in memory? I managed to answer them.
3.Write a code for in-order traversal. I wrote the recursive solution.
4.He gave a binary tree and asked to write the in-order, pre-order ,post-order traversals?
5.What is balancing a binary tree? Since i was not sure i said i don't know. but he continued asking what is the complexity to search an element in a binary tree. I didn't knew this by heart so i calculated that in front of him.(log n). He continued in the same pace: does you formula work for a binary tree 89-78-67-54-47-32(skewed).i said no. Then can u guess what balancing a binary would mean? "the process of infusing optimality to the tree so that the no of steps to search an element is log n". i think he expected that answer so badly. "excellent" he said.(Some times, you end up cooking answers so well that they are more appealing than the learned ones, but very rarely) :)
6.Write a code to delete a node from a linked list. This time i gave him a reasonably good code. But he wasn't impressed. He said the code lacked naming constraints. I asked him for an other try. This time it was a fata-fat code :)
7.What is memory leak? answered.
8.I didn't answer the OS questions very well.
9.One last question: given an list of numbers. How do you find the second largest element, by traversing the list once. i thought 'never heard the question before. how difficult this is gonna be'. I took a paper and tried from the scratch. The solution was so easy to arrive. He was reasonably impressed.
10.You have anything to ask? I said I would love to work with hp and If I didn't meet your requirements, i would like to make sure that i will prepare myself in course of time if opportunity permits :) thank you....


After some five minutes results came.I was shortlisted for the next hr round. I was very happy and equally tensed.

5:00pm
HR ROUND
It went on very well since they concentrated on my project. It turned out an added advantage for me(My posts, while doing that project would reveal the reason).It lasted for 30 minutes.


10:45 pm
The results came and ten of them from my college including me were selected. Happy :)
(For detailed interrogations please mail me: anbu.myid@gmail.com)

"THERE ARE AS MANY INSTANCES OF INTERVIEWS ,AS THERE ARE HUMAN TRAITS, RARELY PRODUCING TWINS"

.

face- mafia wars- book

one good game. now level 27 :) good to be a tyro. Wondering about the implementation strategy and why this game is so successful? Over 5 million playing daily.So is it every body wanted to be real life dons or atleast virtual dons? But for the don thing ,every body wanted to be somebody other than their present....Tats all the time i have...just 15 more exp points to reach level 28 :)

good old trip...

(from left: krishna, sidhu, visak)
(photo taken by: anbu)

Where? : VAITHEKI falls - 50 kms approx from Coimbatore city
Who all? : Anbarasu(anbu), Krishnaraj(gilli), Sidharth(sidhu), Siva visakan(visak)
When? : Thursday, May 29, 2008,
How? : Visak's car
For what/why? : !!!!!

First, the photo. Was it taken in a 'falls'?why this photo? Because this was the only photo taken in the trip. (follows the presumption that we didn't take any good cam).So why are these guys walking in such a weird place?
Answer: you ll know it at the end. But i cant help myself becoming frenzied even now, when i think of the "WALK", the above featured guys in the pic including me, had had for the next 1 hour, then. I mean it. We walked for an hour in an almost dense forest, which forgot the term:"a trace of any human inhabitation".........

We started from visak' house(visak,gilli,sidhu: my inmates in coll!) at around 8:30 in the morning. Our plan was to go to SIRUVANI falls(cheers kovai). Its such a good place. Everyone was desperate to hav a shower in a falls. It was a quiet comfortable, pretty decent driving by visak. No pit stops. We reached there at 9:30. But we have to walk through for some 15 mins to reach the falls, from the parking. On our strode, a guy coming back told its of no use going there, the falls is been flooded. holy s**t, told us in a sync :( But i insisted the guys to see it through. We walked to the falls. No surprise. Falls flooded. The weather was too good to leave from there. Nothing could be done there. We left the place. Walked back. Got in the car. Sobs. We began to depart. Grave silence.
gilli: "machi its noway that we are going back without being in a related sort(paused). We are going to VAITHEKI falls right now....
visak:"great.You know the route gilli?"
gilli:"No. I barely know there exists a falls of the name?"
others:"podaaaaa"
gilli:"I heard it is somewhere near siruvani hills"
others:"so much for a clue. but what dov we do if there isnt a falls anywhere?...."

(somebody started, 'hope for the best' philosophy....)


20 mins later:
me: anna how to go to vaitheki falls?
Passer by: (smiles) You wanna go there? Its very dangerous thambi. I think its almost impossible to be there. Lot of elephants.Moreover its been closed by the govt for safety concerns..."
me: "We ll manage na. just tell us the route..."
Passer by: (laughs again) there isn't a road to Vaitheki falls.....


(Did he say,a road to eldorado?) We were wondering. But a lot of "go straight-take a left-take a right's", took us somewhere near the farthest spot from the falls. The people on our way wondered at the 4 wheeled Opel's product with awe. No sign of a tar road. If I were to describe the road, which barely existed, 'under cons(truct)ideration' would be the word. But visak managed a mile or two. Only when we saw a 'road breaker' in the path. It was as huge a gully, a rift decent enough to be formed after a considerable explosion. A huge 'U' in the road. But there seemed a road after the rift. We were ought to cross the rift to keep our falls plan alive. After so much deliberation, our obsession decided rationally to take the turn, to cross the gully, what so ever. visak pulled from 1'st gear. full throttle. rpm at its max. tyres rolled slowly but steadily. finally we were up the the rift, and onto the road. We managed to drive some 5 to 6 kms in the road that followed. But we were stopped again, but this time relentlessly by a stream.We decided ,Its no way we can go further, but somebody completed 'in the car but for the legs'

We parked the car under a 'tree'. Took a wash in the 'stream'. Walked with our 'legs' towards the 'mountain' with the 'plants' across the 'rivulets' with one word 'hope'. So we were in the 'nature'. Completely within. Into the jungle. four of us.

One endless thought ran in our minds

"mother nature never betrays her children, if she does, its because she needs us in her lap....."

(the rest is definitely not a history. But in the next post)

saw one solved same : )